Release.

if you don't vote."

Lately, I've come to terms with this quote. Basically, you can't bitch about it if you didn't do anything to end it/help it. I mean I've been the person who complained but didn't do anything to help resolve it and I accept blame for that. But I've change my ways and realized not saying anything is ultimately worst than saying anything at all. If you don't say anything, you have no right to bitch and moan about the problem because you did nothing to resolve it. However, there is a fine line to that statement to where if you say too much you just are being a bitchy person and not accepting/dealing with it.

Life is packed with those fine lines. The fine print at the end of every contract. You never know when you're overcrossing them or not even in close proximity. I find it a bit ironic and comical.

Being alone in the apartment isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I havent' had time to be by myself and I forgot how much I enjoy it. I love being with people but I also love being alone. It gives you your own personal space to do your own thing with no concerns for anything else. It's relaxing and a breath of fresh air.

I want to get out there, into the world. I'm ready to be this spectacular person who makes differences in peoples lives. I want to live in the city where every day seems like an adventure. Ok, so maybe that's just a cliche and how it seems it movies. But it sure as heck beats an apartment in Tallahassee, FL where not much can be done besides school work.

I think I'm just getting tired of my life in the moment. I get into these times, where I just want a change. Not so much a big change, but a change of pace. I've been crushed underneath piles of work for school that I feel like I need to get out again. I need excitment. I need more than chemical equations and animal phylum. I need more.

I know that eventually all this work will pay off. But sometimes I just want time off to go out and be a young woman in the world. To be wreckless, to be wild. To live in the moment not caring what it will bring me. I guess, I just want to rid myself of responsibility for a day. For one day, do what I want, when I want it. Stress and drama free. I don't want to have to think about my actions. I want to feel and impulse and just go do it. I want to live in the movies.

I love day dreaming. How fun would it be to have your own soundtrack. To see your life from the view of another person, like a movie. To have music play at the appropriate times. To feel infinite. Those times are rare, but when they happen. They sure are amazing.

Ok, so I've gone down a bazillion different roads on this post.
Until next time...

Make your own soundtrack.
Walk to your own beat.
Be reasonable and conscious of your surroundings.
Think of others.
Love
Live
& be Happy
no period needed.